Assalamualaikum,
I’ve several times mentioned that
I’m a reserved person (though I don’t think I am anymore). As I WAS a reserved
person during my study years, I don’t involve in sports much, frankly no sports
at all except when teachers made it compulsory such as the games among rumah
sukan or sukaneka. But still, I remember being high spirited each time I join
in most sports.
Badminton – since primary to
secondary school, I always played badminton around my house. Outside or even
inside the house J
what a memory that is. Outside my house, we add a net in between our gates
pillars. The games, was among my father, my brother, me and sometimes my mother
joined in. I always adore my father and brother who were always learning new
technical skills. I got to learn from them. Easy. So I think I can play
badminton quite well. But didn’t have the will to try out in any clubs or games.
There was once when I was in university, my brother informed me that they were
recruiting girl players for badminton. And I didn’t give him any answer. I’m
just afraid. When I went to one of the games thereafter, I was frustrated for
not joining earlier, as I know I’ll do better than the other girls who entered.
There, no confidence at all! Shame on you.
High jump and long jump, and 100m sprint – now, these are the sports I
secretly like when I was in secondary school, especially the long jump.
Although I never qualified, I always push myself to do my very best. I never
knew my performance. Maybe I was actually qualified, but the teachers never
told me? Haha, because I always think that the more talkative girls always have
the chance. I never talk to the teachers personally. I always answered when
teachers asked questions in class (quite loud but not by raising my hand – for
the lack of confidence). I always finishes my teachers sentences. But, of other
things, including sports, I wasn’t confident to talk directly to them.
Marathon or merentas desa or
anything more than 100m sprint – these are the least sports I like, and I’ll
never like. The reason? I have breathing problem. My heartbeat would beat so
fast so easily. And I got tired easily. I’m always behind, and always the last
or close to last person to make it to the finish line. It’s like I didn’t know
how to breathe. After marriage, I’ve tried the treadmill at the gym. Mister Partner told
me to run on treadmill correctly, which is to slowly increase the speed after
a few minutes. If he didn’t tell me, I would set high speed, and then I'll surely get tired quickly, and I'll stop. So, the step by step speed increment do help me to not be out of breath easily. But I still don't like the long run.
When I started working (more than
6 years ago, already!), I joined a few sports, one of them is badminton. I love it so
much, to play again J
Besides that, I learned new sports, including bowling, ping pong, netball, and
carom. Yeah, I joined them all. It’s because our organization is quite small,
and being a young staff, I was urged to try them all. I enjoyed playing every
game, though I don’t exactly excel, but I had fun, and it was an experience I’ll
always remember.
But now, I’m under the fertility
treatment, I don’t do any sports or exercise (real ones). But I don’t regret
it. Maybe I’d have some other time, because I’d rather sacrifice all those fun
activities, and having the time of my life to just have a big family of my own.
Who wouldn’t wanna?
